Sunday, February 28, 2010

The Circle is now Complete

Years ago, when I was in High School, I was tormented by a group of students. Not a revelation. One particular person( I wont name here ), would tease me mercilessly non stop. What was really hard was he was from my neighborhood. I couldn't escape him! He lived really close to me, go figure. One summer night, at his hot dog stand, we got into it and he blindsided me with a punch to the face. I lost it! This guy had me with about a 150 lbs, but I tackled him anyway , and had to be pulled off of him, I went berserk ! The tormenting didn't stop!Oh how I hated this overweight, dumb and ugly human being!!!! Speed up a few years and I'm at Donovan park watching the Twins play t-ball and I spot this really cute little boy get so excited because his Daddy is there to see him play. I look to see who in the world could this incredible person be and what hits me in the head like a mac truck!!! It's him.( Thank god he didn't recognise me, I would've died right there!) How can this be? He's Evil and vile, where is the justice in the Universe that he could have a beautiful child who loves him !!!! How can anyone LOVE him. How!(It's not fair !!!) I would always picture him in the lower rings of Hell getting exactly what he deserved. But alas, the joke was on me,once again! While I'm carrying around my cross, my pain from his torments, He went out and had a life ! With my luck, the life I wanted ! Well, with love of my family and friends, I finally laid my demons to rest and moved on. I often think to this day, What If I ran into ONE of THEM! What would I do. Am I over all that High school crap! I like to think I'm who I was meant to be now. I like and finally accept who I am. I'm proud now of my life ! BUT, what if? I was able to ignore him at the ballpark and as much as it was a shock. I was in such a good place I thought I didn't care anymore and it felt good,, BUT and here it comes,,,, he wants to be my friend on Facebook!!!! The circle is now complete!!! hahahahh. Why? !! and at first I thought, well we all grow up, but do i really forgive and FORGET? Can I just walk past and let it go? Should I? Or do I try and prove I'm beyond all that and can forgive and forget, allow this person however little to feel redeemed? ! I haven't decide, BUT I did look to see who he has befriended and its interesting to see people I love and admire are in his circle. One of whom is my brother,,, go figure,,,, I guess they didn't see, what I saw. Most people only see what they want to anyway!